When I smoke weed, and only when I smoke weed, I will occasionally find myself fantasizing about having sex with a guy. It gets me thinking about whether or not some part of my mind is trying to convince me that I'm gay, or if its some Fruedian subconscious conditioning trying to break out. I've had strong urges to jerk off to gay porn and will occasionally act on those urges. I still enjoy sex with women though. A lot. Though I can only get off when I'm doing them doggy style, and I can only enjoy head with my eyes closed. I think its fair to say that sexuality in 21st century America is incredibly confusing, no matter how gay or straight you think you are. It makes me wonder what would happen if I actually did have sex with a guy. I can hardly picture doing it, not to mention what it would be like afterwards. Awkward much? I'm making it sound here like a way bigger deal than it actually is, but its hard not to wonder about thoughts like that, especially because I feel so confident about my sexuality when I'm sober. It would be some drama-extreme if my gay friends found out about this. Confess ID: wtr4qlod        Posted On: 20-Dec-2008