i am a 25 year old virgin and have never kissed a girl. and have never told anyone. i have alot of cool friends and consider myself a cool dude, but when the conversation turns to chicks, i've got nothing to say. i'm successful at everything i do, but women. i've just been afraid of rejection this whole time and it has ruined me. i don't think i will ever get married or ever be in love. i have given up. i'm a decent looking guy too (6'3", athletic, fucking smart, funny) but i just have no self esteem or confidence when it comes to women. i turn red all the time around hot chicks and its emberassing. i tried to kill myself this past christmas but couldn't pull the trigger. i hate myself and i don't think i'll ever find a girl for me. i think about killing myself everyday because it would just take the pain away. i consider myself a douchebag and wish i could change the past. fuck, i've never even been on a date. if anyone ever found out i would kill myself and wouldn't think twice about it. i've grown up in a christian home and church all my life and am second guessing everything. i'm a fucking mess and wish i could just be normal. life sucks rhino nuts. Confess ID: ytrngl5j        Posted On: 29-Sep-2008